incessant ramblings

It’s late and I’m kind of tired already, but I felt that I had to blog out my feelings or I’m just gonna cry again when I see Xiao Xuan or Qiu Mei tomorrow.

Today was kinda good cos Mr Abdillah didn’t come!
Our whole class was rejoicing ((:
Physics, before that, was confusing..
And Jia Yun shared her TB with Kai Xuan and I, lol.
I NEARLY learnt finish Da Di Hui Chun!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Stayed in class for recess and ate my ham sandwich while reading To Kill A Mocking Bird.
Hai Mei and Tiff were like saying that my sandwich looks yummy, heehee.
I MADE IT :D wooo, i rock (:
After recess was history.
Essay -.-
Mdm Mariahmah read out her 15 (or so) minute written essay and it was.. DAMN BLOODY GOOD.
Seriously. I mean, why else would SHE be the teacher? Her writing was damn nice and it flowed while having loads of points.
I’M ENVIOUS~

Went back to class for English and did the usual stuff. OH CRAP. Got english journal homework. Shall go check if there’s English tomorrow. rawr.
Bio was siannnnnnnn, as usual.
And that Mdm Zulaiha.
What the hell lah. FREAKING last minute tell us that NEXT monday got Bio Mock Exam for ALLLLLLLLL sec 3 topics.
WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I did some Bio TYS just now(just the MCQ) and it’s like, I don’t understand SOOOO many. I’m SCREWED.

Anyway, after school, we ate and stuff, and Clarissa came up to class with me to take the Da Di Hui Chun lyrics.
The door was locked, so I talked to her about acapella while waiting.

Blahblahblah.

I went to TM with Rui Xue and Zi Hui.
You know why they insisted (and practically dragged me off) that I go?
They said, “Cos you very funny what. *big grin*”
What the..

Anyway we had fun lah.
I asked the Popular staff where was the cheapest scotch tape, LOL.
The girl looked damn shocked lah, heehee.

We bought the stuff, rushed down to NTUC, got rafia and went to buy bubble tea.
Rui Xue treated me cos I helped her…. do something. Heehee.
Honey green tea bubble teeeeeeeea :DDDD
I walked super fast while drinking and stuff, and Rui Xue and Zi Hui were half scolding me, half complaining, lol (:
Jay-walked and rushed back to class with the supplies.
After some time, Clarissa called my phone and asked me if I could go to the choir room cos they wanted to ask me something.

I rushed there and they asked me to hear 3 different versions of Longest Time.
Benjamin sang one version, Minah and Clarissa, and Alvin and Clarissa.

Seeing that the sec 3s won’t see my blog, I shall write out what I truly felt.
I felt that Alvin’s attitude sucks.
He kept trying to push the job to Benjamin and what’s more, the others voted that he lead the group.
HOW? With such sucky attitude.
And earlier on, Ke Xin went home with Mui Shan while I was upstairs with Clarissa.
I was like what the eff?!
Can’t believe it lah.

And all along I was against Sherly joining the group, but since they voted her in, I guess I’ll just live with it.
But when I was in the choir room, Minah, Sherly, Alvin, Ain and Clarissa and I were sitting and standing in a circle and Sherly and Alvin were talking in Indonesian.
I think it’s pretty rude to speak in a foreign language that would make anyone feel left out, so I told them like, not to talk in Indonesian, or even Chinese, cos Ain wouldn’t understand.
Ohmyfuckinggod.
I can’t fucking stand Sherly, ESPECIALLY when I heard what she said.
She was like, Nevermind, We’re talking about Council.
I was thinking, ‘So WHAT if you’re talking about council? All the MORE you shouldn’t talk in Indonesian. In fact they shouldn’t even be talking about COUNCIL. I was thinking how utterly disrespectful she was lah.
I mean, she’s not even very close to me and she come and say this kind of thing.
I guess she has this way of PISSING OFF the seniors. (Wei Yin, Yingying also what right?)
My GOD.
And Alvin will of course, argue for Sherly.

And when I asked Minah just now online, what he thought of acapella today, he said that it was very unproductive.
Why?
DUH. Cos they wasted fucking shitloads of time.
They went home at about 5.50, when I was leaving school. They could have left at 4. If they actually WORKED instead of talking and slacking.
And in the choir room, I kept asking them if they had anything else to ask me, cos I seriously wanted to get out.
When I could finally go, just a few steps towards the door and tears immediately sprang to my eyes.
I felt super angry and sad.
Two years of building up BYS, and it might die in the hands of these people.
I might not have cared so much, but I was usually the one nagging and getting them to come for practices and coordinating practices and making them do stuff that they weren’t keen on.
We might not have liked it at times, but we still had fun sometimes and made good music (:
I want a BYS outing!!!
The ORIGINAL 2006 BYS.
Firdaus, Yan Jie, Benjamin, Alvin, Xiao Xuan, Maggie, Qiu Mei, Wan Leng and Me.
All of us. None of the new members. Even though I don’t feel particularly nice towards Alvin right now.
If he were Minah, I might’ve whacked him, cos Minah would ask why, then I can explain.
But Alvin is too naggy. He would keep resisting when I wanna say something.
):

Walked home with Nad and told her about it.
Just thinking about it makes me feel like crying.
In fact, this is the most I’ve cried since about 2 years ago, when I first came to 3e6.

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